A Travellerspoint blog

May 1984

Departure Date Approaches

It seems as my departure date approaches that every facet of my life is escalating to the point of insanity. Everything: women, cars, money, my friends, my artwork, and more, is getting to the point where I just want to say "Fuck it! I'm leaving." Now is that because of coincidence, or because I know that I'm leaving soon? I suppose it doesn't matter much. I'm going either way. Trouble is, I have a nagging and growing feeling that I'll not have enough time or money to go. I just can't stop or curb the constant flow of money away from me. And I've got so much to do before I leave (or, in order to leave). It almost seems like I have two more months to live. I want to wrap it up and tie together all my loose ends. But some will inevitably remain loose.

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Rainbow's End

Rainbow's End
- Sergio Mendez

Who looks at her life in the palm of her hand
Rain's on the roof, there's tears in the land of heartbreak
She has made up her mind, she won't turn back again
She writes a note, but words just won't say
Turns off the TV, pulls down the shade
She's leaving...
No she won't change her mind
To leave it all behind

Just one more story from a lonely road
A twist of fate and then a spot of gold
Out on the rainbow's end
Just one more chapter in a sad hotel
Another penny to the wishing well
Out on the rainbow's end
Don't you turn back again

Who's playin' cards from midnight 'til dawn
Lives in a waste and yesterday's gone forever
He's made up his mind to leave it all behind
So he says to himself as he folds up his hand
Ooh, will all my friends will understand where
I'm goin'...
To find my own way, I won't turn back again.

- Chorus -

I have a dream that I hold in my heart
And I won't let go
Welcome tomorrow -
I'm on my way. So goodbye yesterday...
Goodbye yesterday

- Chorus -

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The Cycle

My mom surprised me the other day. After being off work and sitting in her house for three weeks for the healing foot, she had come to an important realization. She realized that her condominium was just a building, four walls that she sleeps and eats in. Once her knickknacks were all bought and in place and the place cleaned and she had come to a stop, she looked around and saw it was nothing to revolve your life around. In fact her house was causing her to have to work her life away. She pays all her bills to keep this house to live in while she goes to work to make money to pay the bills. Do you see the cycle?

I told her I thought this was valuable thinking on her part and that it should give her some insight into what I'm doing on my trip. When I eliminate, or at least reduce, my living costs (rent, heat, electric, phone, water) the cycle is broken. I don't have to work every day to support myself and maintain a lifestyle that is really much more luxurious than I need.

Mom is back to work now. I'll have to see if her "break" influences her life at all.



The first page in my trip journal is labeled "Stuff." It lists all of my belongings and who I left them with. Click photo to see full-size.

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